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Volume
VIII, Issue II
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April
2003
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untitled Submission from a slaves point of view. Is it of choice, want, or desire? What am i and what are you? For most of us the choice to be submissive is something that is made everyday. i've heard submissives
say: "i'm a poorly trained sub", "i'm
hard to break", "i don't follow orders well". All
of these confuse me, make me think and wonder. How can you not
follow orders well? What wouldn't you door or Why wouldn't you
do what the person you have agreed to Now i am not talking about bottoms/masochists who like to be played with or beaten or caned, or whatever the kink is they enjoy. Nor am i talking about the ones who are using submission as a means to an ends. i am talking about submissives, ones who desire to serve and are "lifestylers" to use a simple term. i classify myself as a slave because it is what i am. for this i will use submissive to encompass all that enjoy submission, slave or sub or bottom. i've realized i was different a long time ago, and am slowly realizing what that difference is. Submissiion is a desire for me, not a choice or a want, a need. it's a need like breathing, hearing those words "Good girl/boy" makes me shake and quiver inside. i see others struggle and it makes me think. Made me write and pen this on an early sunday morning. Submission of choice. For some, switches included, submission is something they choose to do. it's part of who they are and what they are, make no mistake about that. . It's a choice for them, one they may make every day. you can see it when they let it go, turn it on, or let loose. it comes out from them, but it is clearly a choice they make. They choose to be submissive and hence may be told they "top from the bottom". They don't...they only choose that which they offer to any given person. They choose when, what and who the offer their submission to and that may change at any time. Submission
of want. For others it's a want they have, they have had and
they want to submit, but
can't find the
right Person. These
will find one and will submit to that one, but to the world and
to some they may be called "Switches" or bottoms. The
submissive of want, Submission of Desire. For others it's not a choice, it's not a want it's who they are at the core. It's what makes them up and what makes them tick. They submit to all, yet are not submitting at all or to anyone. It's not a choice because to say it's a choice implies they can say no. Now don't get me wrong they can and will say no, probably in a polite manner, A few think being a doormat is what this is about. It's not about that it's about me, you or them. When you see them, you know it immediately. They offer themselves as is, submitting 24/7, yet still they need Someone who accepts them as is. They receive pleasure in just submitting, but submitting to all does not mean they are Your submissive. Submitting to "all" is being who they are and what they are, it is that simple. It's hard to say what makes me tick, makes us tick. i know that seeing others in the lifestyle makes me think and glad to be who i am. i know what i am and who i am. i am me, and i revel in me, and my submission every day. i struggle with letting it go and always worry others will see me in ways that are not. but then people say things "it's nice to see a submissive who truly desires to serve. who isn't in it for “sexual gratification" and i wonder how others can not enjoy the simple smile i see when i make someone happy. others don't know the inner joy from taking a coat, opening a door or even just giving up my chair. it's not a want or choice, it's a desire to me, a need to me. Yet even with all of that, it's still something that i struggle with everyday, some days more than most, other days i don't think of it at all. b |
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| Thanks to Barbara Nitke, Chris M & our Silent Auction Donors We wanted to take a moment to thank all who made our February meeting so much fun and so educational. It took lots of time and energy on the part of many people but it was all worth it! Barbara Nitke showed us a wonderful slide show of her photography which makes a great visual history of the scene. She’s also a very funny and engaging speaker. Let’s hope she gets a contract to publish her book! Chris M treated us to a “pre-release” reading of his delightful “A History of SM in America (according to Biker Nick). From the audience reaction it seems safe to say it was a smashing success! We also held a silent auction to raise funds for the National Coalition for Sexual Freedom. Thanks to everyone who donated items to auction. We raised $560 for a very good cause. So thank you one and all! Love, Satryicon |
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Sweetly
Mine! I think I shall warn you NOT to wear any clothes you wish to keep... Manacles behind the back first, then leather cuffs locked on the ankles... Cool metal of the knife blade slices through fabrics....Till only the black leather belt is left around your waist.....clothes pins around each aureole, and clamps on each nipple.... Rope being rove through the ring of each ankle cuff, and looped up over the belt...Ankles tied up close beside the butt cheeks.... Caressing and massaging and squeezing all over as You squat before me, your lower lips dampening the handwood floor. Behind you I wrap a sleeve around both of your arms... It laces up the center, and is denim....As I lace it and tie the laces, I also secure black leather belts around your upper arms and elbows...I remove the manacles and lace the sleeve to contain both of your hands, buckling another belt just above your wrists... I bend you forward over an ottoman, and redden your cheeks well with my right hand and my paddle, plucking and then removing the breast clips and closthespins... Love those sweet squeaks you make!! Especially the moans and squeaks as I slip a little plug in your rosebud.... the lube runs, and you realize it REALLY is a nicely peeled bit of ginger root... Floggers, spoons, hairbrushes, quirts..... Cuddles and caresses.... I ask if you are hungry, as I hold the ginger root before your lips...you KNOW it was not supposed to come out yet.. you say "As It Pleases You, Master" even though I see the revulsion in your eyes and your head shaking "Nooo". This Pleases me, and I thus toss it away, before giving your ass an excellent caning..... Your sweet sobs echo through the room as I roll you back onto your back....my thick plastic spoon thuds well upon your sore breasts and nipples...and splashes SOOOOOOOOOO sweetly as I paddle your cunt and clitty!! Master loves your gushes and throbbings, your wiggles and sobbings! Now Master takes HIS Pleasure.... Kneading and caressing a breast in each hand He gazes upon Your sweet hot cunt, dripping, snapping lightly at Him... His tongue goes deep inside, and laves His slave's sweet center...savouring her juices, her moans, her total submission, tasting and drinking as it Pleases Him... Master licks and caresses and strokes the slave as He likes, tormenting her hot lips and nipples and clitty, enjoying each gush of her juices.....releasing the belt, caressing her legs....Holding her....releasing the sleeve.....cuddling her close in His arms to Cherish her ! It Pays to Enrich Your Word Power Dacryphilia -- person who is aroused by seeing their partner cry Agonophilia -- perspon who enjoys engaging in a pretended struggle before overpowering their sex partner. Algophilia -- Sexual arousal gained by pain sensations. A lot of algophiles have sexual arousal from being bitten. Autoassasinophilia -- Refers to the possibility of one's own masochistic death by murder. Biastophilia -- Refers to those who are only aroused when assaulting an unwilling victim. Coprolalia -- The act of using words that are considered obscene during sex. Harmatophilia -- One aroused by mistakes or rules being broken. Hybristophilia -- Arousal dependent on knowing that a sexual partner has committed an outrage or crime, such as murder, rape, or armed robbery. Somnophilia -- Sexually aroused by having sex with a partner asleep. Zelophilia -- Someone who is aroused by jealousy. Triggered by either partner becoming jealous. Thanks to Jasmine for the lesson! |
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warm and soft thud of a flogger again oh yes She is near -douglas f wallin |
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BD/SM vs. Magick Each of us has a unique path, and thus what is right for one may not be for another. Some can not mix BD/SM with religion. For another, BD/SM may BE their religion. Many of the energies we find in BD/SM have analogies in religious experiences, in meditational experiences, in Magickal experiences, in contemplation of things we find beautiful (including Nature), in hypnosis, and in energetic healing. Subspace and Dom(me) space seem to be aspects of trance states to me. There are lots of folks who claim various uses of
Magick. Some are manipulative, some are helping or healing, some
are simply
prayers. Being ethical and respectful of others is more important than the label one uses. A manipulator is often going to abuse others, no matter what religious beliefs they may label themselves with. Many western religions are very vested in controlling their adherents by fear and by prohibitions. Often this also involves discrimination against non members of their group. Too often it also includes gender or ethnic discrimination within the group, too. One thing to consider is that the enemies of my enemy may be possible friends. The
religious groups seeking to "bust" BD/SM
people and groups and activities around this country all express
hatred and
fear for Wiccans a lot more than kinksters. They throw us in jail,
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Winter Morning's Worship VielD: Good Morning ((((MiLady)))) VielD: i hope You are feeling better! VielD: i am Glad! would keep Adoring You and helping any way i may to heal you VielD: Bringing you juices and warm slippers VielD: Caressing and Adoring you VielD: lil' omelet VielD: Hot chocolate VielD: Warming You well VielD: serving You a lil' more VielD: Warm washcloth to clean Your face VielD: i pick up the dishes and draw You a nice hot bath scented with Your favorite bubbles VielD: Turn up the heat, and carry You to the bathroom VielD: gently remove Your robe and ease You into the hot bubbly water VielD: softly caress You as i attend and wash You VielD: kneeling beside the tub VielD: Shampoo and condition Your hair, high & low VielD: gently shave You as You instruct VielD: yes MiLady VielD: caressing You as the bath oils work their Magick upon You VielD: Thank You, MiLady, i love to serve You! VielD: i rinse You warmly, then help You up VielD: Wrapping You in warm towels fresh from the dryer VielD: Gently drying Your loveliness VielD: brushing Your hair as i blow dry it VielD: Wrapping You in a warm fleecy robe from the dryer VielD: MiLady, i Adore taking care of You VielD: warm slippers on again, then carry You back to bed VielD: Love that, i Love being allowed to Cherish a Lady VielD: i gently file Your nails with emery boards, toes and fingers VielD: Massaging You VielD: saving the polish for later VielD: slipping under the covers to hold You very close VielD: Cherishing and loving You VielD: Loving it as You snuggle in sooo close in my arms VielD: Loving You and Cherishing You VielD: giving You my full Adoration VielD: surrendering all my strength to You as You give Yourself to me VielD: My Lady!! VielD: melting with You in my arms, Adoring You VielD: so incredibly sweet to feel You cuddled with me VielD: MMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmm VielD: hearts beating against each other VielD: i Truly Love it as you intertwine with me VielD: Your body warm from mine VielD: Loving our cuddles VielD: hot nipples burn agaist each other's flesh VielD: as we hold and gently caress VielD: i ADORE the sweet heat as Your dampness presses against my thigh VielD: When You chose to rub upon me i melt even more VielD: Holding You so cherishingly to me VielD: adoring You VielD: Feeling Your arms around me feels sooooo good! VielD: i Love it when i feel Your juices run along my body VielD: Or when i feel You rub against me in Your sleep VielD: serenely safe in each other's arms VielD: Dreaming softly in each other's arms! |
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"Jargon" The very idea of "in-groups" as related to BD/SM can be quite a fertile fund raising thing at $.25 per pun, because so VERY much of "Our" scene is comprised of "in-groups" of different sorts. Most professions, skilled trades, hunting groups, work teams, crafts, combat teams, and gangs develop dialect variations of their parent language frequently known as jargon. It appears to me that the current jargon term in an academic linguistic group to mean "jargon" is "in-group". Naturally re-inventing terminology used academically provides publication opportunities, as well as items to use on "multiple guess exams". Jargon facilitates communication short-cuts between group members, can be used to clarify a direct response group members are trained to make (ie. "sic 'em Spot!" to your bunny or people related attack dog), and can provide a secret way to communicate group thoughts which outsiders won't understand (ie. "then She pulled the zipper and i flew SOOOO good!"). Jargon can also be used to differentiate group members from outsiders (ie. "Cool!" to one generation may mean "Bad!" to another, which in turn may mean "Keen!" to another, all of which were intended to translate the phrase "I find this to be good."). BD/SM related jargon starts with the term BD/SM itself, which some clever folks unknown to me figured out YEARS ago could be used as a short-hand for D/s, B/D, and S/M which are thought to be three of the main focal points of folks enjoying our kinks. That thought also was developed into the three part BD/SM medallion, which symbolizes some of the different scene aspects. Jargon is also used to re-inforce preconcieved status within a group or to put down folks with different needs/likes from oneself. I may claim that my kink is a proper "SSC" (safe, sane and consensual, ie. "good") kink, while your kink may be an "edgy" (less accepted, possibly dangerous, MAYBE even CRAZY!!!) sort of thing. Naturally this is because I am "of course" a solid citizen, while perhaps YOU might be a "flake" can be implied. My MANY years of academia (1968 through 1978 plus many other bits) taught me to value personal thought rather than the thoughts of others when applying values to individual wants and needs. I discovered that every person is very unique IF allowed to be so, and that any system of labelling not applied by the person in question to their own forehead results in positive or negative prejudice having influence. I also reaffirmed my OWN belief that the English language is a minefield of deceptions we can use to mislead our selves or others as we chose. Think of a string of single commonly used words, then think of the myriad of perfectly true individual meanings each word can have. " Love", "warm","lead", "sucks", "bad", "vanilla",and "dominant" are only a very few examples. |
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A Friendly Note from your Editor I just wanted to thank everyone who contributed material for this newsletter and want to encourage anyone and everyone to consider contributing themselves. Please consider submitting your fiction, poetry, tips and tricks, essays, cartoons, photographs or drawings, or anything else you think our Members might be interested in. No contribution is too great or too small! We’d also be interested in hearing from anyone interested in submitting regularly (ahem) – whether as a column, taking questions from the peanut gallery, pointing out interesting sites on the Internet, writing up scene reports or events they’ve attended – pretty much anything you think would be of interest to your fellow members. Sending via email is fine; sending as a text file or Word-like document is even better! Allan |
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